It is work to rest. I would much rather be busy and on the go and doing things because that is what I like and enjoy; but, I know without a doubt what I heard the Lord speak to my heart:
Get in the rhythm of rest
Ugh. Sometimes, I just don’t like what I hear. And I tell Him: Lord, you know me and the way I am wired and how I….and I go on with my list with the Maker like He didn’t create me and place those very longings in my soul. I want to do all things. I want to be with all my friends. I want to travel and… He hears it all. Sometimes I wonder if He gets out His journal and writes in big letters:
REPEAT OF WHAT LORA SAID YESTERDAY
And you know what, all my saying what I want, doesn’t change what He said to me:
Get in the rhythm of rest
For all of our subsequent conversations which are one sided with my opinion of who I am, He, and His words, remain the same. So, I am working at resting. Yes, I am. And I just want you to know that it is work to rest. I am use to The Salesman saying, “Can’t you just sit down and watch this without doing anything?” Ummm, no.
So I pencil in to rest and sit on the back porch at sunset as the mosquitos bite my ankles and I run in to grab my Citronella oil and I think I’ve found my way out of sitting; but no, He doesn’t change. Back out I go.
And I rest.
And He shows up
And He shines
While I whine
He just shines on me
As He confirms that right now, rest is best.